my swt moments :D

2010-11-06T23:08:00.000+08:00

my love made me felt tired .

have you ever be in a state where you force yourself to do things that you hate it ?
have you ever be in a state where you felt yourself being so helpless ?
have you ever be in a state where you hate yourself so much ?

im helplessly being mentally out of control .
i dont tink it will last .
i know that it will repeat ,
i know this wont b the last time .
i know more will happen in future .
i knew it , i knew it myself , but i choose not to believe in it .
but now , it seems different .
i dont know how should i put it .
i hate being myself .

anyway,
i've gave a miss in 7s rubgy's event ):
kinda regreted ! zzzzz.

2010-10-19T14:49:00.002+08:00

damn hunggry now !

actually i came to blogger cause i wanted to change my blog skin .

but then , i was confuse to put which photos up .

will blog again soon when i've collected all of my photoshoot pictures (:

shall i change to this ?

2010-10-05T01:14:00.003+08:00

yes, im upset, seriously upset.
i tot that was your past.
i tot it was in the past tense.
but i guess it's not.
i hated her bcos both of you have hurted me before.
but you repeatedly unknowingly hurt me again & again.
she's so sensertive to me,
but you treated as nothing happen & repeatedly name her infront of me.
cos of her, you lied to me, you broke my heart & ...
im so wordless.
all i could do is to just cry sliently wout you noticing.
i wish to speak, but i couldnt cos i know you will b shielding her & b unhappy with me after that.
i really dont know whats she's related to you.
you've been hurting me since the day you said you chatted with her all nights, still contacting her when you told me that you wont.
the most silly mistake that i did was allowing you to reply her fb msg.
i tot you will just reply her what she ask as promised.
so i darly give it a try cos i trusted you.
but it didnt turn out that way.
i saw both of you chatted happily.
& you're smiling here & there.
my heart is like hurting till brusting.
but you dont seems to know & you attituded me after that.
& today, you called me saying that you want to go out.
you didnt tell me what you're up to.
you didnt tell me wher you gg when i asked you repeatedly.
but i know what you're up to.
again & again, im being hurt.
i couldnt voice out how pain was.
i tot loving someone you should give her happiness & not dividing yourself for others?
i repeatedly change myself just to suit you. but.. what was it?
all i kan say that you've just hurted me deeply again.

2010-09-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

at last all of my pictures are in place .
gonna update last week pictures while im in Genting with big'J' on the 12september to 16september .
its a small gift from me to him for his ord (:

our journey begin ..

DAY 1

we went on the five star coach .
was suspose to get up the bus at 11pm . but there was an deley till 1am .
so we just jolly well wait & get up the bus to slp .
cos it's mid night & ther's nth to see .

it's 1am , at last our bus is here !

the dark dark night

at bout 3am+ they stopped at a coffeeshop for us to have a 30min break .
then the journey continues ..
the night have fall , we've almost rched Genting .

@ 7am , We've rched Genting !
we get down the coach , & just chiong to the hotel lobby .
cos it was too cold outside as it was raining .
when we get ther it was deserted .

we're not able to chk in .
we got our 'Q' number & that person ask us to come back at bout 12pm to chk in .
so we just walked everywher .
& my poor big'J' got to carry our luaggage . haha !
we went to have our breakfast first .
our fisrt meal @ Genting .

some entertainers @ the lobby

@ bout 2pm at last we got our hotel room

DAY 2

out to the theme park !

oh , i wanna say , if your in Genting better eat fast food than veg rice .
just two plates of veg cos us 40Rm -.-
but marybrown's 5pcs chicken cost only 19Rm .

then we went to the indoor arcade
big'J' love this

our dinner @ pizzahut

then back to hotel to ret awhile & at 1.30am we're out for a movie
they have two different kinds of seat .
one is the luxury(blue) another is the normal ones(red)

& their popcorns . i dont like .

DAY 3

was tryng to pack up the stuff for tmr . & big'J' was happily snapping here & ther

im so in love with marybrown !

DAY 4
back to singapore !

rched at bout 9pm+
then we cabed back home .
congrats big'J' for your ord (:

2010-09-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

heyo ! IM BACK !
i've plenty & plenty of pictures & things to update .
but i guess i wont b updating all .
cos im not in the mood to update yet .
gonna just update some random ones .
the other time , i forget when was it , big'J' & me let small'J' try on big'J''s ns cap .
& the he goes ...

he's too cute to resist isnt it ? hees .
alright , gonna stop here .
will update more another time .

2010-09-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

yes , im a failure .
i failed everything in my life .
i failed to do anything .
everytime , i tried to overcome you , but i couldnt .
im always the one who got hurt deeply , im always the one crying so badly for little things that you did .
do you know why ?
cos i've fall deeply into you .
i know that you're my the only one ,
but you didnt treat me the same when you said you did .

2010-09-03T23:03:00.003+08:00

recently , i've met an irritating fucker with attitude problem making a fool out of herself .
& yea , it's a childish one (:

2010-08-12T22:48:00.001+08:00

gosh , my slping timing is mess up again
just woke up not long . wondering ltr im able to slp anot
tmr got to wake up at 7.15am for my brifing
gonna work for roadshow with weii & shuwen on this coming monday (:
hopefully , i kan survive for that week . hees .
well , ytd went to aljunied & parkway for interview with weii & shuwen .
the day was so bad & unlucky .
ask me why ? but im not gonna tell you why . hahas .
hmm , tmr plannings ?
guess tmr gonna bring joe out shopping with shuwen, her bf , big'J' & me .
imiss joe so much .
dont know what's wrong with my head now .
so painful . making me headache .
guess i gonna just upload the pics & blog again another time .
stay tune !

@ shuwen's hse

her 'dou dou' , i know this pic very cock . lol

@ parkway

did you guys notice someting different ?
i've changed my fringe parting to center parting . hees .'
BYE !

2010-08-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

i wondered why do i always being trap in love problems .
i wondered why i always can overcome everyting but expect things related to you .
i wondered why are you so important to me .
i wondered why are we like this .
i wondered why will i end up in this state .
i wondered how will this end ?
i wondered will this come to an end ?
i wondered are you reading my blog ?
i wondered do you know how i feel .
i wondered are you thinking of me .
i wondered how much do you love me .
i wondered did you miss me ?
i wondered when wil you start to talk to me .
i wondered when will you come towards me .
i wondered how should i talk to you .
i wondered when will you give me a hug that i need so badly .
i wondered will my phobia towards you go off .
i wondered , i wondered , i wondered so badly to have you back .
我不怪你 , 我之怪自己 .

2010-07-30T07:22:00.000+08:00

30JUly , a day that i will never forget.

Dear God ,
i couldnt sleep well . just put me to sleep will you ?
the 'monster' images have been flashing thru my mind wakin me up every hour .
i just need some rest );
my both hands are really hurting , my heart is hurting even badly .
it's the first time , really the 1st time .
im just so speechless now .
staring into space , starting to tear . why ?
why did i end myself up in such a pathetic state ?
im tire of ranting , im tire of sayin , im tire of repeating .
take me away pls .

2010-07-27T19:32:00.000+08:00

wow ! i got the sudden urge to blog today !
it's 7.21pm now.
& guess what? i've just woke up. hees (:
ytd went to kbox with big'J' & co. till morning
sing, sang , sung = throat pain .
this week i wont b alone , i wont feel lonely cos ...
he's not bookin in for this whole week ! so WOOO.. ! God bless us . LOL -.-
someting randomly hitted me .
i was tinking & asking myself seriously what do i want to do in future .
my mind was just so blank .
when im out of job , i will have the mood to go & look for job .
but till when i got it , not more than 2months or 3 , i will just get tire of it = I FIRED MY BOSS
why do i always having this mindset ? humph . so irritated .
what should i do ?
i know i kant carry on ths way .
if this way continues im gonna be a useless freak ! tsk.
how how how ?

gonna change my blogskin soon !

2010-07-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

22july
HAPPY 18th Birthday , Dorothy !

at last, yea, at last im 18.
most of you may want to stay young always.
but im different, i hope to get old faster.
why? i dont know why. LOL.
went to resort @ ecp with big'J' & his friends.
drink, drank, drunk.
his friend then drove us back
@ he surprise me with this in his room after i shower.

thanks ! big'J'
although it's not any expensive stuff or any special thing,
a piece of my favotite pandan cake is enough.
a good memory is more than enough (:

wondering what i've been doing this few weeks ?
well , lastest update is ' i've quited my job '
so , im as per normal , available on wkdays & unavailable on wkends.
most of my wkends have spend on resort & small'J'
nth much to update about .
so will just randomly update the pics .

before gg to resort @ big'J' hse

@ town with big'J'

2010-07-19T13:51:00.001+08:00

im struggling

days have pass so quickly & i got no time to blog .
at last , i've the time , but im not in the mood to do it .
sigh ,why am i always making myself so upset & confuse for him . tire , yea tire .
i got so much to rant bout , but it's still not the time .
another 3days will b my 18birthday .
well , im not in the mood for it .
so i guess the celebration gonna cancel already .
will update you people again .

she's gonna break down again

2010-06-22T11:40:00.001+08:00

well , should i stop my work?
many things have been stoping me to work.
i miss my previous life.
getting so fustrated now.
i also dont understand why.
everything is like so weird to me now.
how should i move my next step?
how should i carry on?
i hope to have some rest.
too much pressure, too much of fustrations.
i know you're feeling that too.
we shoulnt take this step.
i know you're suffering till almost burn out.
your words are repeating & repeating in my head over & over again.
can we call this the end?

2010-06-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

IT'S ROTTED.

it have been many many days or months i've not touch my blog.
was too busy with work & everything.
it's just a daily routine for me.
mon-fri
6.40am-wake up
7.30am-leave big'J'
8.30am-start work
6.00pm-end work
7.00pm-either at big'J' house or with parents
10.00pm-sleep.
it just repeat, repeat & repeat everyday.
what a boring life.
i miss the times when i dont have work, enjoying myself every night out.
weeks have been passing & passing too fast till i felt that i dont have enough rest. sigh.
down with eye infection AGAIN ! damn irritating.
doctor ask me not to put on contact lenes till my eye recover.
when it gonna be alright? i need my lenes.
just done my shopping spree with big'J' on last saturday.
went to chinatown then to bugis then to orchard.
have also watched A nightmare on Elm street & the karate kid.
A nightmare on Elm street was damn scary & i dont like watching it.
but the karate kid was nice, yea damn nice. i dont mind watching it for the second time.
ok, gonna stop here.
i dont know what im blogging already.
too tire to continue.
will upload the pictures & others soon.
so stay tune.

2010-04-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

i've not been updating for quite awhile & im here to blog now .
past few days weather was not really good , have been raining & raining with thunder & lighting .
didnt did anything much .
but i was only in the mood to go for a swim .
i only recalled i went to this few places ;
the it mall with big'J' @ suntec , resort @ east coast park with big'J' & his friends , cityhall with big'J' , swimming @ jurong east swimming complex with big'J' , cwp with big'J' & lastly , my job interview @ orcahrd & bishan .
well , fyi , i've gotten the job already & im starting work on monday .
it's an admin job , which i got to work on the weekdays only frm 8.30am-6pm .
i so-looking forward to the job actually .
bt after i receive a last minute email from them ; they request me to darken my hair colour ,
i was like half sian already .
but i dont wish to do that . sigh .
so how ? should i still go for work ?
or should i dye back my hair ?
i've tot of mayb i dye back & go for rebonding ? shall i ?
im missing ♥ so much now , did you miss me ?
我现在的心情 , 怪怪的
心里好象空空的
不知道该做什么
im waiting for you to bk out ♥
another week to go ? ):
it's just 2weeks nt seeing you & it have been only 5days & im missing you so much now .
how bout your thailand trip ? 3weeks ? i just im gonna be dead .
Joejoe , 你有想我们吗? 我们都很想你.
明天就能看道你了(:

2010-04-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

yup , i not alright , im upset .
you made me cried so much .
everytime i tot of you tears just flow down .
since you made this decision , then tel me , what should i do , which step should i take now .
why not you teach me everything ? im too stupid to know what to do .
i've regreted so much , so much .
you hurt me like no body business .
you dont even know what i wanted after this long 4years . joke .
what is this man ?
i hope this could just be a fairytale that appeared in my dreams , bt it couldnt be .
what you wanted is just yourself to be happy .
since when did you tot of me ?
whenever i dont allow you to go out , you will just str away attitude me .
i ask you to go out with me , you will still have some thoughts , bt YOUR FRIENDS ?
they just give you a call & you just agree to it right away .
what is this man ?! c'mon luh . are they so impt ?
you sholud know your status now man . when will you grow up ?
when will you know how to care someone who loved you so much .
you're making me so confuse now . i hate it so much .

2010-04-02T07:34:00.002+08:00

okay , at last i've the time to blog .
look at the time now . shocking ? it's onl 6.23am -.- & it's a good friday , im sure most of you are still in your la la land .
well , i got no intentions to wake up so early but i got to .
big'J' went out with small'J' , mum & bro to somewher .
so , i got to wake up to see small'J' awahile .
& just nice i tot of my poor rotting blog so i came to update .
small'J' have been with us for this few weeks , so , im not able to blog so often .
i dont have the spare time to spend on here ,
whenever im free i will spend it on slping cos it's really tiring & im really exhausted .
anw , it's a new month ; april .
have you been fooled ytd ? LOL .
luckily im still the clever one . no one could fooled me with all those sms . haha !
it was also mi & big'J' 's many many months anniversary (: 57th month i tink .
he's not romantic at all .
when the clock strike 00.00 , 01.04.10 , i was sitting bside him waiting for him to speak . but he've no reaction .
then til 00.05 , i look at his eye & asked him , ' dear , do you have any words to say to me ? '
he replied , ' ...... , okok , i know la ' . zzzzzzzz .
how thoughtful you're ! fat pig .
this few days , he've been at home more ofen than he's in camp for some reasons .
so , more time at home = more time with family = more time with me .
& many secrets & history of his have been digged out .
i didnt ask him anything or forced him , he choose to tell me himself suddenly while we were chatting in the late night .
at some point , i agree i couldnt take it .
but what to do ? , it's the fact & i dont wish to know even deeper to hurt myself .
so , when he tell me some stuffs , i willl just act as if , it doesnt affect me at all .
what for knowing the past now ? when you know that you couldnt do anything already .
it's just adding more salts to your wound , lesser trust , lesser love .
but with serious tots , if , i knew it earlier , im clever enough to know everything on my own , im not being deceived , i will not choose this path for sure .
i wont choose to sacrisfise myself , i will not choose to settle down with you , sigh , im so sorry to say it but im too heartbroken .
my feeling now are just like i've drop from a very stable ladder that i always thought .
you put in efforts to climb up high , cleaning up all the unwanted things , prevent every unhappiness , he just jolly well tagged along with you & you happily thought that he loves you so much , you thought that it will be very stable for sure but after 4years , the stable ladder slowly got dulled with all the dead leaves clinging on everywher , the wood got weak , i got tire cleaning it up , i find it hard to climb on , hard to cling on & slowly , i dropped off .
ther's still too much for me to say . but i dont wish to elborate it on here .
for today's post , im not shooting him or anything , it's just my freedom of speech , my own thoughts , my hidden feelings that i didnt told you .
i've too much to tell you , but whenever i tell you , im afraid you will ke lian me & make promises to me again which you never wanted to do it like what you said .
i will always remember what you said .
disappointments .

2010-03-15T22:34:00.001+08:00

hmm , i dont know what should i blog about .
felt so tired looking at my blog ; rotting
today i woke up at 3pm plus then got back to slp till 7pm plus . damn song .
met up with sis ytd , she came 2head to find me , ate many prata then slacked everywher chatting like those aunties , laughing out our ass , then went home .
big'J' will be back tmr (:
i miss & love him much .
got the urge to see him now .
bt he's on guard duty today . sad .
suddenly i felt that i got so much to say to him
but i dont know what should i say .
the dates are nearer & nearer . awws ~
yea , & i've got my hair done .
will upload pictures the next time round .
did some highlight & everything @ kimage with sis the other day .
alright , guess im logging off , it's just a very random post for today .
byes .

2010-03-04T18:10:00.001+08:00

independent .

issit good to be independent ?
at the age of 17 , i started to live on my own .
not taking parents allowance anymore , not gg back home anymore .
currently im staying at my bf's place , helping out my aunt at nus to get my so called 'allowance'
amazing isnt it ?
i didnt ever tot that this day would come so fast .
if i could , i will rewind everything back .

big'J' is coming back today (:
he'll b helping my to dye my hair ltr i tink .
nt changing the hair of my colour , gonna just do some touch up .
cos my black hairs are out ! lols .
i wonder how will he dye my hair ltr , cos it's the first time he's helpin me .
i just realise that another new month have jus started , which means that me & big'J' have been together for 4years 8month = 56month hehes . kan action abit . lols .
but i did nth for him this time . hahas :X
humans are always liddat , in a relationship the first few months's anniversary , the guy and the girl will make stuff to show each other how they love one another .
then after that few months , slowly they will get a little tire and they will just msg one another " happy anniversary ! love you , bla bla bla "
then slowly after years , they didnt even send any msg or give any gifts to one another & some even forget bout it .
this is the part wher me & big'J' are . lols .
i know the way im typing now is rather mesy cos im enland is too good .
bt i guess you get the picture what i mean ya ? lols .
logging off .
ya , will b removing my iwebcounter .
i tink ther's some problem with it , it have been restarting & restarting .

2010-03-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

hey hey ! im back (:
just bathed , hahas . xiang xiang wor -.-
hmm , nth much happen nowadays , peace for me. great isnt it ?
every mon-fri , wake up at 7.15am bath , change & everything , mrted to clementi , bused to nus as i helping out my aunt . then 3pm , go back to either big'J''s hse or aunt's place to visit joe .
when it comes to wkends , saturday either go out with big'J' for a stroll or saty at home .
sunday , very standard , bring joe back to boonlay .
hmm , i dont know it's a good news or bad news .
i've decided to go for hair extension next wenesday with sis . hehe . rather excited ! wanted long long hair for a long time , bt my hair doesnt seems to grow .
bt what im afraid of is i dont know how to takecare of it . cos i will extent those curls ones . more ma fan , i feel .
anyway , i'll go try out .
gonna upload some of my photoshoot pictures taken on one of the monday @ chinese garden with sis .
& ytd pictures to town .

my first photoshoot with them .

ytd , i went down to town with sis .
we're both so in our shopping mood .
we shopped many things . tops , dress , slippers .
anw . i love my dress ! hoho .
i gonna cope the pictures from her again .
oh , we took neoprints ! i dont know how long was the last time i took with her .

our neo prints .

that's all im blogging for today .
gg out soon . bye (:

2010-02-23T16:37:00.001+08:00

my eye is painful ! );
eye infections again . fuck it man !
kant go to work , kant go out but could only stay at home . sigh .
big'J' is coming back ltr to look after me .
ytd he just bought me a eye mo when i meet him .
went amk hub with big'J' & kelvin then to S11 to meet another two more frens then to chambers again .
i 'dong' my eye untill i kant 'dong' already then big'J' cabed back home with me .
posting up some overdue pictures on the 16feb & 20feb .

16feb

well , i forget wher i went . -.-'

20feb

went to bukit batok ns home team chalet .
cousin's gf give cousin a surprise .
he didnt know that the chalet that he's gg is for him .
then when me , my sis , relatiives all went ther then he knew it .
i guess he's rather shock & surprise .
quite a sucessful one .
will my boy surprise me on 22july too ?

2010-02-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

hey hey ! cny is on the way !!
have you clean your hse ?
just packed big'J" 's room for him .
it's in a big mess man . luckily i still did packed it all ready on time (: hehes .
tire now . gg to sleep after blogging i guess ?
shall start off with sis bdae . on 5feb . we went to element then to martin .

5feb

my gift for her

took it on my way to yishun mrt to meet them .

my phone camera is in bad condition ):

she blowed her cake at one of the coffeeshop ther due to the time .

we ate the cake at element

the grp photo .

a lame one

i know very ugly . but i dont mind postin it up . lols !

ther is still alot of the pictures .
but im not gg to upload it already .
kan chk it out in facebook .

6feb-saturday

went out to orchard with big'J' .
just nice we saw sis , andy & kiscon ther & we to shop together .
all of us were busy buying clothes .
& now my wardrobe is full .

oh , i went to the polyclinc for my skin .
intended to ask them to refer me to skin doctor .
but they asked me to try out these medicines first .
cos she says skin doctors products are strong & some skins may not be able to take it .
so , i tried out .
after 3days , it really did get better (: claps.

bought these false eyelash . i find it great .

aunt bought me these heels from charles & keith & im in love with it ! joe also like it , he wants to try it . lols !

freshkon solution is having promotion , so go grab it !

this time round im so so into Lioele products !

the very saddening box that i've gave him for his present .

thats all , gonna stop here . im tire . gg to sleep ther's still work tmr !

2010-01-31T12:54:00.004+08:00

felt rather lost at this moment .
it's your bdae today .
i tot today will be a great day for us , it will b an unforgetable day for you .
i tot we will b spendin our night hugging each other tightly , holding on to each other hands every moment . but everything just went opposite .
all of my effort , my plans have just gone down the drain .
i guess it's more of a bad memory for me ?
i dont know why did i put so much hope for your this bdae . mayb bcos it's something different ? sigh .
but till now the air is still not cleared i guess .
i dont know what should i say to you when i see you .
always gg wordless when i see you .
wanted to tell you many things but i just couldnt say it out .
it really hurt to see us liddat .
but it seems that you're still very happy ? nth is affecting you . i dont mean much i guess ?
the gift that i gave to you i spend so much time , so much effort in it but everything just went meaningless to you .
you open it unwillingly ytd and put it aside this morning .
you didnt even open or take a look at the phone or anything . i tot you will be happy when you see it . unfortunely , you're not even happy at all ?
anyway , i guess i have already done my part .
what you wanna do you decide bah .
not gonna ask you anything anymore , if not you will say that im irritating you again .
you wont know the feeling when your love one says that you're irritating when she/he have something to say to you . sigh . i dont wanna say anymore already .
it just breaks my heart when i know the causes of this matter .
anyway , if you're happy like this , then im fine with it .
still wanna say happy 20th birthday to you .

2010-01-30T17:51:00.000+08:00

IM CONFUSE & UPSET ):
can you feel it ?

2010-01-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

it's a wenesday !
another two more days to pay day . hohos .
& another four days to big'J' bird day (:
have decided what to get for him .
either a sony G700 or nokia E51 phone as requested . right ?
have been staying at 2nd home this few weeks .
& i was so bored as he was not in so i went to dig his drawer .
everything in his drawer was ours' .
all our memories one by one i recalled everything .
i felt that i was a thoughtful gf . LOL ! i know im very bhb .
i still remember ther was once he was sick . running a high fever .
after sch , i quickly ran to his place to takecare of him .
bought him food , fed him .
apply cold towel on his forehead & he was screamin like mad .
& on the day itself , his fever went off . cool isn't it ?
ther was also once , he was admitted to the hospital cos of some leg problem & he didnt tell me only when he might need to go for an operation then he told me .
the first thing i did when i knew it was , i rush over to the hospital leaving my work away as i was working at that time .
before rching i still remembered i scolded him badly on the phone .
but luckily in the end the doctor say he dont need to go for operation .
i dont remember how long have he stayed in the ward .
but i only remembered i took many days of leave , bought him food as he dont eat the hospital food & accompanied him till he was discharge . thoughtful enough ? lol .
ther are still some others but im lazy to type everthing up here . hahas .
gonna show you guys some of the things that i've made for him for his bdae , our anniversary , etc .

this is for his 17th bdae . 3years back .
this is only part of it .

we exchanged our baby photo album during our first month anniversary .

one of he valentine's day gift . i forgot when year was it already .

another gift , but i forgot what was it for .
but i only remembered it was a last minute gift .
i bought clay , make it into heart shape by my own hands then let it dry for a day then painted it red & let it dry then write in the aphalbets on the hearts to form a word .
i forgot what was it already . lols.

& lastly , a simple & lastest one .
our 41st anniversary .
i went to the photo shop to print out our pictures .
made a own made card with a essay in it .haha !

guess what this is ?
actually it's for our marriage plan .
he went to did a deposit under this company for our wedding photoshoots & stuff . he's kinda like showing me how true he's to me i guess ?

andthat's it im gonna share .
this time round for his bade , i will make something more special .
something that i did not try before .
hopefully it will be a sucessful one .
will share with you guys again .
so stay tune for my update (:

2010-01-25T19:03:00.003+08:00

will you be the one ?

dorothy getting more & more confuse with her r/s .
many thoughts wondering .
wondering issit bcos of small'J' that brings us together ?
wondering issit really bcos of love ?
your bdae is coming soon . real soon .
& after your bdae you wont have any more time for me .
i dont know should i be happy or not ? but i still teared down .
anyway , how should i plan for your bdae ? didnt get anything done yt .
years back , during this time , i guess your present are on the way . but this time the feeling isn't the right .
you asked me whether i will choose my fren or you . i paused .
i didnt answer you .
ppl who know me well will know that i wont hesitate to give my answer saying that i would choose you .
but now.....

my blog is dead . real dead !
just back not long from clementi .
rather tire . but it's a fun day .
gg drink or not ? sigh .
this few days i have been eating & eating wout fail .
more & more fats are approching me . lols !
somehow , i just find that i need more BFF ! im in need of it . bt i dont want OP pls . lols .
OP dont qualified . hahas . jkjk .
posting up last week pictures .

18jan .
went out with sis as usual (:

as usual , i steal everything from her . haha !

23jan
went to amk hub .
big'J' said that he wants to bring me out , wants to spend time with me , etc . but in the end , all were lies . all bcos of that someone .
that IRRITATING FELLOW !
pictures on that day .

24jan
went imm with big & small 'J'
hunting for shoes but i didnt bought any .
too tire carrying small'J' so we tot of an idea .
we went to the supermarket to get the trolley . lols !
anyway , small'J' enjoyed sitting in ther . lols .

the other time small'J' play a fool on me .
he saw this car machine and he ran up .
i tot he wanted to play so i put in a dollar for him .
end up he cry like mad & get down the car .
he's afraid of it moving . lols !

ok , gonna end here .
lazy to blog already .
bye .

2010-01-19T19:01:00.000+08:00

DOROTHY ain't happy .

felt so moodless today .
ytd was a totally gone day man ! gonna have phobia with tiger already .
what i kan describe my feelings now is sian sian sian !
currently kinda addicted to 郭書瑶 ; yao yao's 放弃你

2010-01-14T17:34:00.002+08:00

ther's too much to update !
& i dont know wher should i start with . zzz .
i've forgotten some of the dates , so it will nt b in order .
this week passes fast .
went shopping , hair show , swimming , etc .
& big'J' is back from camp (:
do forgive me if it's too messy ):

day to bugis for seesha with sis

head down to bugis
shopped awhile at street then to iluma & to seesha .
it's a shopping spree week for us !
let the pictures do the talking (:

iluma's arcard . S$10=100tokens

seesha .

SUNDAY-10jan

head down to taka with sis for our hair show rehearsal .
this time ther are more models than the previous show .

after rehearsal , we went to the food republic for our breakfast .
then back to yishun ; big'J' house get changed then to boonlay ; sent small'J' back

& back to yishun again for xinwang ; our dinner & back to 2nd home .

MONDAY-11jan
woke up by weewee's call
meet him & go back to school for my olvl's result .
i was almost late .
wasnt scard or anything cos i was mentally prepared . dont ask for my results pls .
went back to sch , took results & back to sch canteen for breakfast .
sis joined us & headed to funan it mall for my hair do .

bleahed my hair ends just for the show .

after that went to bugis , shopped again .
i felt my hair is making me so special like carrying a big bush of hair . lols .
then back to northpoint'smac .
slacked , ate for dinner & back to 2nd home .

TUESDAY-12jan
the big hairshow day @ taka .
went down to taka , but ther was too much models ; nt enough space , so we went back to funan for the hairdo & makeup .

at bout 3.45pm , went back to taka as our show is at 5pm & gt to standby @ 4pm .
get changed & snapping our cameras here & ther .

then the show started

i was damn cold on stage , was kinda shiverring ther .

our makeup artist

after the show , detached everything , get changed , we headed to food republic for our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner .

sis dont get use walking her 'pong pong' hair around , so we went to one of far east's salon .
started snapin around while waiting for her .

SHE GETS HE BANGS !

shopped around far east , busesd back to yishun & home swt home .

WENESDAY-13jan
trip to je swimming complex .
went swimming with esther & sis .
play almost everything expect for the yellow slide .
wasnt much ppl there .
i guess we're the only 3 sg chinese girls ther & the others are guys ? lols .
more chee-na ppl . hahas .
after swimming , went to IMM for dinner .
& to daiso .
bought fake nails .
& i'vejust applied it on .
tada !

cool ? but big'J' says it's very fake ):
alright , stopping here will update the other pictures some other days .
BYE !
oh , most of my pictures are from sis & xara (:

2010-01-06T18:02:00.001+08:00

currently in watchin 海派甜心
they rocks man !
how i wish i could watch all the ep now .
but how sad , ep11 and above is still not out yet . sigh .

anyway , pass two days have been an enjoying night for both me & sis . right ? hahas .
get to be merlion , get to be more than ourselves .
not closing ourselves in the cage anymore .
but good times still passes fast .
tmr got to go to funan it mall at 1pm for the try out of hairdo for kimage's hair show on 12january @ taka .
do come & support on the 12th !
this time gonna do it with sis .
i guess it gonna be a better one then the previous one (:
im lookin forward to it . hoho .

2010-01-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

IM FEELING RATHER DOWN TODAY .

having some kink of dont know what to say de feeling .
it's making my mind go round & round . sigh .
have been taking drugs & alcohols to bed this few nights .
kinda stress , really stress ):

gonna update the other day photo to bugis with esther & sis .
i grab all the pictures from sis blog .
but not goona grab all , cos ther's too much .

at iluma .

alot uh ? actually ther's still have some others .
kinda addicted to this song .
some sort of love song ? .
i really like it very much , very meaningful .
have put it as one of my blog song .
weiwei sis , it's very suitable for us .
must listen to it ar .

this is the meaningful part that i like.
如果那天没有遇见你，我一定不会如此迷茫
如果那天没有爱上你，我一定不会如此疯狂
如果那天你没有离开，我一定不会如此犹伤
如果我不再是现在的我，你会不会回来回到我身旁

2010-01-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

happy 2010 everyone !

the first day of 2010 is not a good start for me .
things have not ended yet .
kinda really stress up . sigh .
is me to blame . i couldnt blame anyone .
i choose my own path & that's it .

had a small quarrel with him today .
& i hurt myself at the escalator wout knowin that it was bleeding . zzz .
im having walkin difficulties now ):

2009-12-30T01:33:00.001+08:00

things have happen again and again .
im so stress up now . hais .
who can save me ?

just rch big'J' hse .
was with weiwei sis , esther & wj earlier .
will update the pictures when sis update her post .
i have a very weird feeling nowadays .
how i wish i could just vanish into the air and not returnin back .
i know im not a good daughter .
i did not do what you want me to .
i did not be the sensible daughter that you tot im .
i have let all of you down again and again .
breaking your heart once and twice .
always makin you tearin down for me . im so sorry
i know saying sorry dont means anything but rathet then this i got nth that i kan do .
i know she have been crying , not slpin well .
he have been in the bad mood but not showing out .
but what kan i do ? what can i say ?
when i look at you i dont know how should i react .
i felt so stress staying in that house .
seeing him & she doing the housework , answering debts calls & everything .
it's no longer the same .
i no longer feel warm in ther .
i no longer felt im part of the family .
i dont know why .
i guess for this period of time it will be better for me to stay away .
i know it hurts to say , but i just kant do anything .
how i wish i kan turn back everything ,
& get back to my happy family .

small'J' ,
im so gald to have you .
yes , i do agree that it's tough when im having you .
but i swear that i didnt regret having you .
you're the only light in my life now .
makin me smile with your silly acts , kissin me when i say i dont love you .
you are naughty really naughty
but i really do love you .

big'J' you are the one always accompanying me nowadays .
i dont know wher am i & what am i doing right now wout you .
im just so lost wout you by my side .
i guess im still the childish one like you always said .
i missyou alot do you know that ?
quickly book out on thursday alright ?
i kant wait to see you .
i kant wait to tell you everything .
im gonna really break down ):

2009-12-28T14:12:00.001+08:00

well how have you guy celebrate your christmas ?
gg dwn town ? clubs or pubs ?
actually for me , i did nth . lols .
tis whole week i was staying at big'J' hse as he's clearing his leave .
each and every moment i was with him . how cool it was right ?
most of the time we spend gg dwn to chambers . dotaing and dotaing thats all .
oh , i remembered , i went to yishun dam for my christmas count dwn .
many ppl was ther in big big groups with big big cars .
i was with big'J' and my family .
they open a mini bbq party ther .
intended to head dwn to chambers after that , but we were too tire .
so headed back to his place and zzzz .
i got nth to blog .
and i know my blog is rotting badly as well as myself . haha !
will blog again when i want to . so see you !

boy , many things have happen this week .
you always said that you trust me , but actually you did not .
you lied to me as usual .
you make me go mad when you showed that tingy to me
do you know how hurt it was ? all the empty promises that you've gave to me have accumulates too much that i kant count .
i somehow still kant let my heart to let you go even how deep you hurt me .
you guys may tink im stupid right ?
but , ther's still a reason bhind it .
it's just another bad memory from you to me .

my previous work place .

BYE

2009-12-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

soon i will get back to blogging .
quited my job . so im jobless now .
MERRY CHIRSTMAS in advance ! (:

2009-12-09T22:19:00.000+08:00

everything happens for a reason .
it's my fault .

not able to blog so frequently anymore ..
currently workin full time at shine studio at jurongpoint .
damn tiring . im staying at yishun & every single day i got to take mrt to boonlay . roar .
im having a hard time . sigh .

2009-11-18T16:46:00.001+08:00

will not be updating recently .
so see ya !

2009-10-31T14:22:00.003+08:00

sad to know that big'J' friend have just pass away on thursday night due to a motor & bus accident .
he's only 21 and soon to ord during december .
it's really a very saddening case . RIP .

25.10.09
im at big'J' hse on that day .
then went to boonlay with both'J'
sent small'J' back & me&big'J' went to one of his fren's grandpa sonka .
stayed till bout 3am+ as tmr im havin my eng olvl , not able to stay overnight .
then went back to big'J' hse to enter my dreamland (:

this is PRINCE (: .

small'J' love this

the other day , me with weiiweii sis & some others went out for our supper at 400+
me & sis ate the baked potato & after eating, it bcome like this .

i know it's rather yummy (:
one of the night we also ate roti prata .
im so bored that we played with te curry & sugar .
and , TADA !

sis says the 'heart' looks like shit . zzzz . lols .
& this is my favourite apple pie .
have been craving for it this few days .

26.10.09
went to sch for my olvl english .
mrsho gave me this thingy
as i was not in sch for like dont know how many weeks ?
so did not manage to take it together with my other frens .
but , thank you mrsho !

it's a keychain that brings luck . it's cute right ?

gonna end my post with this song
it's very meaningful .
do listen to it

BYE !

2009-10-25T14:29:00.003+08:00

ytd went to amk hub in the evening .
meet weiiweii sis & her bf ther .
me & big'J' went to ah mei's cafe for our dinner .
then we shopped around .
bought a sunglasses & a new eye&lip makeup remover recommended by a sales girl .

well , after using the makeup remover i find it great .
it really helps to clear up my waterproof mascara & waterproof eyeliner well with just using alittle of it (:
really great !
go try it out .
it just cost S$8.50 . cos they having promotion now . usual price is S$16.90 .

then after that sis fren drive us to chambers .
played for bout 2 1/2 hours & went back to 2nd home .

the other day i went out to study with sis .
went to bishan .
then slacked around the jeanyip shop then to some other places , etc ..........

2009-10-20T12:27:00.002+08:00

the other day , me & weii sis went dwn to prudential's office for interview recommended by waiteng .
now , we have a part time job as telemarketers (:
working from monday-friday .

after the interview , we head to plaza sing .
while walkin to daiso , saw this cute machine .

14oct

then after ps , we went walking to orchard .
& home we go !

picture for the day ;

14oct

show day !

went down to funan IT mall at bout 7am+
then they started doing the hair do & everything .
then bla bla bla .
long story to go .
gonna just cut short it & just show the pictures .

the rehearsal

with our hairstylist

back stage

well , the photoshoot pictures i will upload it soon .
so far i got this one only .

bye !

2009-10-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

well , i dont understand why must you be so secretive .
why do you need to delete your history before you allow me to use the computer ?
why are you so anxious when you know that you forget to delete your history when i want to use your computer ?
are you hinding somethings from me ?
pls luh , im not stupid .
dont tot i dont know anything .

2009-10-14T22:12:00.001+08:00

currently staying at bf hse (;
today's show is damn tiring but really fun !
the cat walk , photo takin , etc . m lovin it !
will update the pictures & everything soon !
so stay tune .

2009-10-12T12:08:00.002+08:00

heyo readers !

well , this few days have been staying at big'J' 's hse .
im so so tire now .
he've just book in in the morning . sigh .
got to wait till wenesday or thursday to see him i guess .
the other day , after i ate my food , i did this bo liao thingy cos im very bored .

did you notice the words ? i hope so ? lols .

091009went out with weiiweii sis in the night .
went to sing k with her .
not much picture taken .
i just have this one pictue . lols .

101009
i meet her at 2head for our dinner cum lunch cum breakfast .
went to the famous prata shop .
we ordered ;
mine , meehoon goreng ; S$3.50

hers , magi goreng ; S$4.00

& our ten cino ice ; S$2.2o each

everything taste nice (:
then we head to some block void dack to slack .
saw some candles wax on the table & it reminds methat i did not celebrate my latern festival . as well as sis .
so , me & sis went to bought some candles for our belated lantern festival .

TADA ! hopefully , it can be seen .

okay , a guy came towards us and say that we're dirtyin the table if we nv clean it up after that , he gonna fine us . zzzz .
okay , fine , mr.malay if you want fine , fine this girl over here .
i have the picture for evidence (: hoho ! justjokin justjokin (:

we're both two very considerate neighbours .
look ?
we clear it up (:

nice mixture right ?

we waited for all the candles to melt .
& this is what we get .

111009
big'J' is back from his guard duty .
in the noon went to bring small'J' back to boonlay .
then went back to yishun .
big'J' hunting for portable dvd player .
so we went to harvey norman , courts to take a look .
after that , we went to cold storage for food hunting .
in the end we only bought this .

then we walk around & bought chewy junior ; my first time tastin it .

we walk pass wastons & i remembered this .
the ginvera marvel gel which helps to rub off your black heads & dead skins as well as lightens marks .
i give it a try & it's rather great .
helped big'J' to aply some also . haha !
im a good gf hor ? hehe (:

so sad that while in cooking the chicken cocktail sausgae , i burn my hand .
hopefully , ther wont b any scars . sad .
heal heal soon soon pls .

i wish , i wish , my life would b better &
sis can get over it & b happy always .
see ya .

2009-10-10T21:42:00.001+08:00

MY BOY ,
be back quick alright ?
im missin you right now .
meetin weiiweii sis ltr for breakfast cum lunch cum dinner .
see ya !

2009-10-06T12:23:00.002+08:00

at last i kan update my blog ! hahas .
im at big'J' hse right now .
waiting for him to come back home .
big'J' quick quick kae ?
gonna just randomly update pass few weeks thingy .

07.09.09 - outing with big'J'

went out to cityhall with big'J'
went to the Taiwan cafe for our lunch first .
im so sua ku to say ; that was my first time gg ther & we mistaken it as the hong kong cafe . zzzzz . correct ? my dear ? lols .
but their service was really good . claps*

after eating , we headed for our movie .
watched final destination 3D .
overall , i still prefer watching the normal movie cos i find that wearing the 3D glasses is very uncomfortable & troublesome .
& my silly big'J' wore his specs with the glasses & it look really weird .

SAY GOODBYE TO MY STRAIGHT HAIR !

08.09.09 - lenes arrive !

well , the lenes that me & my friends ordered have arrived .
but there's some mistakes .
i order 10pairs but only 8pairs was given to me .
one of yanting's & xiaoqing's lenes not receive .
till now im still waiting ....

11.09.09 - perm hair

got to say goodbye to my straight hair & say hello to my permed hair (:
went to kimage @ funan it mall to try out their cold perm .
1st attempt ; failed .
2nd attempt ; pass !
in my whole 17years of life this is the 1st time i permed my hair .
big'J' encourage me to go do it so i did it .
the outcome .

me & my cousin

how do you tink ?
straight or permed ?

12.09.09 - outing with big'J'

went to cityhall with big'J' .
this time we went to marina square hong kong cafe .
& watched blood ties .
rated 6/10 .
bought esential shampoo , conditioner & treatment .
after using it for a week i find that my hair is softer & ther's lesser tangles problems .
as you know permed hair will causes alot of tangles if we nv takecare of it properly .

18.09.09 -outing with weiiweii sis .

meet sis then went to boonlay to fetch small'J'
mrt-ed back to yishun then to big'J' hse .
then went down to town-orchard to meet fangying .
after that went to cityhall & slack & .........

shoes that big'J' bought for me .

21.09.09 - outing with big'J'

went to cwp .
ate our dinner & went to timezone .
saw the neoprints machine ther & i we went to took some pictures .
it reminds me when i was in the lower sec bout sec2 i guess ?
me , weiiweii sis , tania & gim & some others always went to cwp to tkae neoprints inour sch uniform .
thinkin back , it's rather lame .
but i know we spend a big bomb ther .
even now , i still have the pictures .
& yes , i know it's not nice . LOL !
sis , correct hor ? haha !

me & big'J' picture .

i was so happy to wait for the printin to be ready .
unfortunely , ther's some error .
so the timezone ppl ask us to retake again .
& we did .
then the error come again .
big'J' & i is already very pissed off .
big'J' dont want take the picture anymore but i want it so for my sake he took it with me again .
then error again !
3times already .
big'J' really surrender & i kant do anyhting . sad .
but at least , i still took a picture of it in my phone .

25.09.09 - outing with big'J'
went to IMM @ je .
it have been a long long time since i've went ther .
walked around & bought my favourite tarco balls .

then we slacked around & bought the coffee bun .
it's nice !
& big'J' told me his mama love this .

30.09.09 - Photoshoot

went down to kimage funan it mall early in the morning at 8.3oam
i was late as 8am i was still @ yishun mrt waitin for train .
just have a 2hours of slp on the previous day .
rched ther they styled my hair & i gt to change first .
waited for the makeup artise & off for photoshoot .
it was fun doing it .
not gonna post up the pictures yet as i wanns give big'J' a surprise .
will be appearing on kimage magazine & gonna go for show on the 14oct .

01.10.09

HAPPY 51st MONTH ANNIVERSARY ! (:
DOR & JON

big'J' not able to accompany me as he's in camp .
& i meet weiiweii sis .
meet at cwp and we went slacking ther .
after that went some places & some places .

03.09.09 - outing with big'J' & small'J'

big'J' bought us too the farmmart at cck with two of his campmate .
i remembered i went ther once with sch for an excursion .
bought small'J' to see the goat , hamster , frog etc .
& small'J' enjoyed feedin the goat . lols .
he was smilling ll the way while he's feeding those animals ther .
im sure he enjoyed himself including me (:
love you small'J' .

alright , i guess i gonna stop blogging already .
soon i will b changing my blogskin .
gonna go dota !
sis , are you awake ? dota dota ! lols .

2009-09-27T16:46:00.002+08:00

hello everyone .
i will still not be blogging .
currently at bf hse updating .
i have tons of pictures to update bt all is in my phone nt yt transfer in .
will do it when i hve the tim e.

my upcoming events ;
30.09 - photoshoot
01.10 - jon&dor 51month anniversary
14.10 - show day .
15.10 - farewell assembly

2009-09-12T10:50:00.000+08:00

sorry people ,
i will not be updating my blog cos com break down .
will get back soon !

2009-09-08T18:03:00.002+08:00

im at weiiweiis sis hse now .
fyi , everyone your contact lenes hve been receive .
bt ther's some problems .
i only receive 8pairs . zzzz .
xiaoqing & yanting are the vitims . LOL .
will get back to you all again .
got go go . BYE !

2009-09-05T06:41:00.000+08:00

well , it have been a very long day for me & im so so tire now ! roar .

2009-09-01T23:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 50anniversary to me & big'J' !
i fucking hate/love you . FUCKER ! (:

2009-09-01T14:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY !

well , i've give a miss on monday's tcher's day celebration in school .
but i wanna wish all tchers out ther a happy tcher's day ! especially , MRS HO ; 5A1's mummy (:

meet up with sis in the morning & slacked till midnight .
firstly , i meet her at her hse dwnstairs & slack .
then we went home to get our books cos we planned to go northpoint macdonal to study .
yes , we really did went to study .
but for the roughly 5hours ther , we just learned two new words ; 'agriculture' & 'aspect' .
that's all . mission for that day ; FAILED hehes .
after rotting & looking at all the beautiful sceneries at mac , we shifted over to 700+ .
meet the same 2idiot & did the same old thing again .
went to a nearby kopitiam to eat tomyam & chicken rice as me & sis were craving for it ,
then we went to one of the blk dwnstairs & slack .
1idiot took some poker cards from no where & we started playing for fun .
then me & sis were bored so we bring up some of our childhood games like , the ' to-to train game , vampire game , etc . ' i know we were making a fool out of ourselves but that's how we kill our time & enjoying ourselves . LOL !
then in the night , big'J' 's fren came over to meet us with his gf .
& poker card again .
me & sis then went to bought beancurd from some shop selling yummy beancurd .
eat eat , talk talk , slack slack , me & sis then took the last 800 bus to 200+ & walked backed to 400+ to home swt home .
im sure sis , will hug her bed very tightly when she gets home cos she have not been slping for 24hours . LOL !
hmm , soon im gonna perm my hair @ kimage bout next week ?
big'J' supported me to go perm my hair cos he says that i have a more mature face and that suits me more than rebonding .
but im afraid of the outcome for perming cos i did not tried it before ! lols .
so the clever me , took some precautions ;
i told big'J' if i go perm & it dont look nice on me .
you got to pay me for my rebonding (:
& he simply agree with it . hees . thanks dear .
hopefully it gonna turn out good .

recent pictures ;

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2009-08-29T17:33:00.000+08:00

currently at big'J' hse now .
he's slping like a pig with small'J' and im dota-ing .
surprise uh ?
i find that dota is so so difficult to learn but i agree that it's fun .
big'J' is trainin me to use cm .
hopefully i will learn it fast (:
sis , you also must fast fast learn how to use sniper ar .
then we kan show off to that guy in chambers . HAHA !
see you soon ! muacks .

2009-08-27T12:05:00.000+08:00

the other day didi just played with this net & i snapped him (:

JUST FOR LAUGHS

dorothy is running out of tune .

2009-08-24T22:53:00.006+08:00

tis few days i didnt have enough slp .
it have been long seen i've been liddat ; gg out during day & night .
& my voice is getting worse .
super tire now .
i need more rest .
was suspose to update blog on monday .
bt my fucking com was lagging fuckin long .

FRIDAY-21august
i meet weiiweii sis first .
went to boonlay & fetch small'J' .
we mrted back to yishun & to big'J' hse .
then me & sis went to have our dinner at xin wang cafe .

after eating , we went over to meet zi jun at 700+
& headed to chambers .
booked 5seats & we waited for binbin & his fren to come over .
me & sis were playing 1vs1 dota as we're still new to it .
was rather fun ther & time passes v fast .
at bout 5+ me & sis then decided to go eat nasi lemak .

back to chambers again then we played till 7 & we went off .

went to sis house slp & woke her up at nout 2 gg 3 ?
22august we plan to go to east coast park for their arcard .
bathed , make up & everything , we leave hse & meet binbin at yishun mrt .
oh ya , i've took this picture with sis bro .

then we took mrt to bedok & bused in to east coast park .
when we're in the mrt ..

we have our dinner at one of the shops first ..
mine at only S$5.90 with chicken , salad , watermelon ..

& sis one . which cos her S$6.90 for only curry , potato & carrot . no meat at all .

after our dinner , we went to the arcard & found out that it's UNDER RENOVATION !
we're ther just for their arcard as we know ther wont b alot ppl & this is what happen . zzz .
so we went slacking and walkin around till we decided to ride bicycle .
during our journey , we stopped and took some pictures with sis camera (:
ppl , i dont need your comments of those pictures .
i know bout my fat legs . LOL .
just ingore it (:

actually , ther's still some of the pictures .
bt my com is too lag to upload it so i didnt upload it .
we took the last bus back to bedok & bused back to yishun .
it was raining heavily at that time , me & sis took last bus back home .
went i rch home , i found out that mum they've lock the gates & im not able to get in .
so i called big'J' & i went over to meet sis first then to big'J' hse; my second hse .
that's all !
BYE .
i wanna quit sch . muahahaha ! -.-'

2009-08-18T15:49:00.002+08:00

not gonna post long .
will just post a short one .

090809-sunday ; NATIONAL DAY !

meet weiiweii sis then went to big'J' hse
bought small'J' out with us & we took cab to orchard .
after orchard , we took mrt to cityhall .
bought 吓到笑 movie tickets at marina sq for our midnight show & went to kbox to spend our time .
marina sq is so so happening on that day .
let the pictures do the talking (:

tada ! that's it !

oh , & my own D.I.Y bling bling (:
guess how much it cost ?
i bet you wont guess it .

BYE !
will update the rest of the tingy another day .
gonna go rest .

2009-08-13T10:50:00.001+08:00

NOTICE : dorothy will not be blogging nowadays .
cos im not well . will be blogging when im better (:

2009-08-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

290709-wenesday

it's a usual sch day for me .
stayed back in sch till 7pm for extra lessons .
after that rushed back home as i gonna meet mum,dad & sis for 'jia to' at blk400+ ther .
we went ther & pray first then a guy bring us to our seat .
dad paid S$500 for it & we got 5seats .
but we still got to share with another 5ppl as a table is for 10ppl .
saw many many ppl ther & some familiar faces (:

well , it's rather bored ther .
i was all the way sitting ther & doing nth .
but , at least i got to eat my shark fins ! i guess it's the best dish of all ?

it's dad !

then after eating all the dishes-not including the dessert we headed back home & slp .
but my tummy is just half full .

310709-friday

sch is making me so so crazy .
i did badly for my prelim2 as just like what i've expected & i got to stay back in sch everyday for extra lessons !
almost everyday i got to stay back till 7pm . wth is this man !
im getting more & more tire of sch . how i wish i could quit sch now ): God save me !
during the in between breaks of friday , i was so so bored & stress till i went to the front of the class and started drawing on the whiteboard .
my classmates slowly one by one joined me & this is the outcome .

proudly presenting to you , our chairperson , EDBERT HAN GENG YING (:

this is the best picture of all , thanks to me for editing . wahahaha !

the drink that i've been drinking all day long

& this is how hardworking im -.-' , dont puke pls .

im in love with all my classmates in my class but not the sch .
felt so so stress everyday when i step in , in sch .
i somehow dont mind what result i will be taking for my olvl but i just wanna get graduated from tis sch .
sigh , still got another 2months plus to go . ROAR !

010809-saturday

it's another new month which is also me&big'J' 49month anniversary (: clapclaps .
woke big'J' up at bout 9am+
accompained him to the polyclinic as he did not went for his ndp
then we went to northpoint to buy our breakfast cum lunch .
bought the kfc brandito buddy meal (:

& i bought this new facial wash recommended by yanting (:

then went back to big'J' hse .
used com , slp , played with small'J' & bout 5+ we brought small'J' down to a nearby playground .
i sat at the playground & it reminds me of weiwei sis .
i recalled back to the past ; how i sneak out of hse & meet her , what happen to big'J' & me at that time , all the good&bad moments flashing thru my mind . how is wish i could go back ther & choose my path again .
after playing @ the playground , we went to 200+ coffee shop to buy our dinner & home swt home to big'J' hse .

weiwei sis ,
sorry for not meeting you on that day
& i do miss you & love you much much .
thanks for being there for me when i need you .
thanks for being such a good listener .
im seriously very thankful to have you . muacks !
see ya soon .

020809-sunday

went to northpoint with family .
ate porridge for breakfast , randomly walked around northpoint & back to big'J' hse .
dorothy is trying not to put on makeup anymore .
she's trying to make her complexion better (:
so , do bare with it when you see the pictures .

4+ went to boonlay .
meet myla & small'J' went back .
me&big'J'took mrt back to yishun & headed to xin wang for our dinner .
my fish spagetti

& his baked cheese chicken spagetti

then big'J' went to bought two vcds home & tada , that's it .

030809-monday

kan i say im tire ?
kan i say i love you no more ?
kan i say i dun wanna care bout anyting ?
kan i say you're just a passerby in my life ?
kan i say that i dont know you ?
kan i say that you dont exist ?
kan i say that im sick of it ?
kan i say that i just want to be alone ?
kan i say that i wanna give up ? sigh ):

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gonna stop bloging here . bye .

hopefully tmr will be a better day for dorothy . i'll pray hard .

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2009-07-27T11:41:00.002+08:00

25.o7.o9(saturday)

it's a outing with weiiweii sis to the escape ! (:
met sis at bout 2+ & we bused to pasir ris & walked to escape .
escape theme park is having a promotion till the end of this month
promotion ; theme park admission + a meal + a ferry wheel ride = S$20 i find it rather worth it .

on that day , the inverted & rainbow was out of service .
so we only manage to play some of the game ther not including the hunted house (: lol
some pictures that we've took .

after playing those games ther , me & sis then went to ehub to eat our free meal .
we went to Gelaire to eat their seafood spagetti which cost S$11.90

after eating , we went for our ferry wheel ride @ ehub .

then we when to ehub's arcade .
me & sis was so so fuck up with one of the AUNTIE at the arcade .
i guess she's either in her 25 or 26 ? the way she dress up is so so orbit . haha .
i still remember she's wearin a 3/4 white skirt and a orange colour top . lol .
dont wanna say it too much if not im gg to post one long grandma story .
me & sis were so fuck up with her till we were cursing & swearing her when we walked from ehub to pasir ris mrt station .
then meet big'J' at cityhall mrt station & mrt back together to yishun .
weiiweii sis left us then me & big'J' went to S11 for dinner again & bused home .

26.o6.o9(sunday)

today is a so called family day for me .
went to have breakfast @ northpoint with family .
then walked around ther .
sis & i bought some foolscape paper & blank paper for own use .
then i told dad that im in need of a spectacles as my right lenes is spoiled .
& he bought me one on them .
thanks dad !

after buying , dad drove me to big'J' hse as usual .
small'J' was such a good boy on that day .
he's soo soo adorable & his silly moves always make me smile . imy , small'J'
then in the evening , big'J' cooked some home-made roti prata for me .
it was seriously yummy yummy , i guess next tym he kan open his own roti prata stall . HAHA !
we took mrt with small'J' to boonlay & brought him back .
me & big'J' then went to have our dinner @ macdonal as im craving for fish burger & the shaker fries .

my favorite (:

after eating , we took mrt back to yishun
& big'J' went to meet his fren @ his hse nearby prata shop & i home swt home (:

BYE ! (:

2009-07-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

23.o7.o9(thursday)

well , today family have celebrated my bdae for me .
i know it have already pass ; it's a belated one .
sis bought my favourite bangawang solo cake for me (:
& mum ,dad bought us out for dinner eating all of my favourite dish .
curry fish head , swt & sour pork ribs , etc .
didi was so good to but me gift too .
overall im so so happy (:

pictures :

my didi

the present that he bought me (: it's cute isn't it ?

24.o7.o9(friday)

nowadays im busy watching this

& im really into it . muhahahaha !
today went to sch as usual & went to 925 for dinner with mum,dad & sis .
then dad drove us to boonlay to fetch small'J' & back to big'J' hse .
today big'J' is not back home cos he's having night guard duty ):
only able to see him tmr . imy , dear .
big'J' got two of the ndp tickets for tmr .
he got two of them for me & weiiweii sis actually .
however , me & weiiweii sis gg to escape tmr so i gave my tickets to sis & her bf .

tmr ndp will b a final rehearsal .
which means , it will be like what's happening on the actual day of the national day .
kinda regreted watching the ndp so early . zzzzz .
tmr will be an outing between me & weiiweii sis to the escape !
it have been months since i last went ther .
gonna have fun tmr (:
will update again !
see you .

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i got a instock of CM-836 no degree selling at only S$16 .
help me buy it away pls (:
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2009-07-22T22:52:00.003+08:00

gosh , ther's really something wrong to my blogger .
im not able to publish my pictures from blogger anymore ):
so i will switch it to photobucket .

15.o7.o9(wenesday) / 16.o7.o9(thursday)

both of this days , i went to khatib pasarmalam with mum , dad , sis & bro on (15/7) & weiiweii sis on (16/7) .
walked around , bought stuffs & foods . POPCORNS !
didi was so engage in playin those bumer car ride & he cost dad to pay & pay for him .
the second day to pasarmalam with weiiweii sis ,
we went to took to viking ship ride & bumer car ride which cost us 3tickets each; S$9 .
i find it rather expensive .

then after pasarmalam , me & weiiweii sis walked back to yishun .
we was looking for a place to settle ourselves down & have a drink
so we tot of gg to xin wang cafe .
just nice at that time xin wang cafe having promotion for their membership card .
so i made one of them for myself & they gave me a red wine for my bdae present as july is the month of my bdae .

& we home swt home at bout 10+

18.o7.o9-saturday

meet weiiweii sis & vonn at bout 12.45pm .
we went to xin wang to have our breakfast cum lunch ther .
having our girls talk ther & it goes on & on till bout 2+

then we headed down to bugis to shop .
me , weiiweii sis & vonn each bought a shorts & others @ bugis str
then we went to the new shopping mall @ bugis to continue our shopping .
at around evening time vonn left us to meet her relatives , then me & weii slack around bugis till bout 9+
sis went to meet her bf at cityhall & i went back to yishun to meet big'J'
big'J' was with adrain & his gf so we went to s11 to have our dinner & back to big'J' place .
after that someting happen & lalalalalala .....
big'J' , sorry to make you so tired & busy that night . LOL .

22.o7.o9(wenesday)

today is a big & special day for me .
cos it's my birthday !
congrats to me that im 17 already (:
4more years to go to my 21 .

today morning i went to sch as usual as im havin my olvl chinese listening comprehension & im not able to skip sch .
once , i get to school , i receive presents & greetings from my friends .

thanks to yvonne , sares , yanting , xiaoqing , serene , guanjie , weesien , jinxing & co. , weiiweii sis , teng , ebel , joonah ar e , uncle micheal , joosee ar e , pearllyn , kokpin , tingrui meimei , junjie , cycena , the friendster ppl & facebook ppl who have commented me for the greetings & presents !

then after my olvl chinese listening compre which ended at bout 3.30pm , i cabed down to big'J' house as he asked me to go his place .
i went to his place wout hoping anyting from him as he did not buy me gifts nor celebrate my bdae for me for the past two years .
surprisingly when i was in his room packing my stuffs , he brought in a swensens strawberry ice cream cake in to the room with a candle lighted on & sang a bdae song to me . how romantic it was (:
if small'J' is with me , it would be even more wonderful ):

then when i tot everyting was over ,
big'J' surprise me with another big bag of presents from his cupboard .
i was like wth ~ how come you bcome liddat ? thats so unusual of you . BT , I LIKE IT (;
he kissed me on my cheeks & handed me the bag of presents .
he insisted not to let me open it till i rch home .
big'J' was surpose to book in to camp at 6pm so i tot of meeting my friends to have dinner at xin wang cafe as he kant accompany me .
wout knowing , he msged his ser for request to bk in at 10pm & his ser surprisingly allowed him .
so i draged him along to go meet my friends for dinner at xin wang cafe .
we eat , chatt & drink then went walking around at northpoint .

then my friends all left , me & big'J' continue to walk around & at bout 8+ he bused back to his camp & i went back home .
i open the gifts that he gave me and i was v v happy .
he bought me a Fench Connection watch , two wedding couple bear & a bdae card .

mayb you have the same tot of mine thinking that how come the couple bear got so many dot on their face & it looks so scary .
actually , when i ask him , he told me that when he first look at the bear , he have the tot of me & him as both of us do not have good complection like them . so i was like dot dot dot & he says he finds them cute .
bt overall , what i still truly like is the card that he've gave me .
cos ther're many many meaningful words that he've said to me & i find that all of that makes sense (:
that's it wii update again ! good night !

2009-07-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

i believe that ther's a bitch nearby .
bitch , you better watch out (:

2009-07-13T19:27:00.005+08:00

gonna blog today cos i know my prelim2 are gone case -.-"
just prepared for my olvl mt oral which is tmr . & im nervous !
after that few prelims paper that i've took , i dont think i will pass any of it. especially my POA & physic .
cos today's POA paper 2 , i did not do the last two question which contain total of 24marks & the paper is only upon 6o . lols .
nvm , forget bout it , it's just prelims (:
hmm , the other day mum bought tis phone from her friend for didi @ bout S$130 ? if im not wrong .
it have all functions + can watch tv .
i love its camera as it have 8megapixel ! it's very very clear .

on saturday-11.06.09
i went to yvonne place to study .

YES , im saying STUDY . i know ppl who know me will be very surprise bout it . lols .

but afterall , i still nv study BUT i teach yvonne ! hahas ! yvonne hor ?

yvonne is so good to cook me a type of spagetti i forgot what it's called & it's nice .

she also prepared one big stack of japan , koreans magazines for me as i told her i might not be studing . see , she's so good (:

& at last , i went to her place to just eat , teach , polish my nails & read magazines . LOL !

then at bout 5pm+ we went to bishan as she wants to go to BHG to buy her stuffs .

we walk walk & walk & i kan say that junction8 is not a good place for shopping .

after that yvoone went home & i went to cityhall to meet big'J'

waited for him for bout 2hours as ther's deley for their rehearsal cos it's rainin .

then we went back to yishun S11 for our dinner .

i find that im a good gf (: hor ? junju (:

done at yvonne house .

& she also offered me this SCIENCE BOOK . THANKS !

pictures for the day :

took it when im waiting for big'J'

& i received this early bdae gift from joosee aunt (:

my bdae is on 22july ; which is next wenesday ; the eclipse day !

it's a unique designer cup ! & i LOVE it !

remember to buy gifts for me (: hahaha !

big'J' what are you givin me ?
BYES !

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2009-07-07T19:47:00.015+08:00

well , on 040709-saturday ,
me , weiiweii sis , tingrui meimei & her friend ( adeline ) went to marina platform to watch the ndp rehearsal 3 (:
was damn damn hot ther , was so so anxious to see big'J' wu shu performance .
we rch ther on time ; not too early not too late & got a good seat .
we was all sweating & sweating as we still need to climb up many many stairs and walk under the big big sun -.-' , felt so uncomfortable .
when we rch ther it was like that ..

then we saw ppl giving out balloons & we get some of them .

we dig into our goodie bags & put on the singapore tatoo .

& we started snaping our cameras (:

then it's show time ...

it started with some lame words on the screen sayin , the ndp rehearsal is cancel due to some problem then ask us to go home , etc ....

then the red lions appear , the concert ...... bla bla bla

( let the pictures do the talking (: )

& this was the one that im waiting for @ chapter6 .

big'J' WUSHU ! before he went on stage , he msged me & told me that he is on the left side of the stage .

i tried hard to see but i saw nth . cos all was all the same .

so i just snap snap snap .

he was wearing his square top hat . LOL .

after that we went to the toliet & it was horrible .

the toliet no light -.-

then we took some photos again .

went back to our seats & played with our hearts .

& best of all , the fireworks !

& after the ndp , tingrui meimei & her friend ( adeline ) went off first as me & sis waiting for our bf as usual .

& the first thing when big'J' see me is ..

he take my goodie bag , dig into it , take out eveyting & drink my H2O

after sis bf rch , we went to took mrt back to yishun & went for our dinner at s11 .

then home swt home (:

* o2 skin makeup base(purple) is no good . i apply it on & it make my face so white like gg for opera ! wth ~ waste money .

050709-SUNDAY

during evening , me & big'J' brought small'J' back to boonlay .

went to subway for our dinner & took train home .

when we was in the train , i notice big'J' toe nails painted with white nail polish & i remembered that , that was my doing . LOL . & he did not notice it .

ther , you saw it ?

zoom in .....

hahahahahhahahaha , i was laughing all the way non-stop

& he goes , you hor .. you hor ... you hor ... (:

060709-MONDAY

went to ntuc & back to big'J' house .

cooked spagetti for big'J' (:

this time my spagetti was really nice .

not joking . it's really nice .

everything have been eaten up by him .

pictures for the day ,

the spagetti

the sauce with minced chicken

ham & hot dog

egg

& TADA !

070709-TUESDAY

went to sch & np today

went to study at bk with yvonne , serene , yanting & xiaoqing as tmr will b the start of my prelim2 .

so , wish me luck ppl (:

may or may not blog for this period .

PRELIM2

080709 - english P! & P2

090709 - SocialStudies & Physic Paper

100709 - Emath P1 & Geography Paper

130709 - Emath P2 & Poa P2

140709 - Chemistry , Amath P1 & 'O'LEVEL MTL ORAL

150709 - Amath P2 & Poa P1

160709 - no paper

170709 - Science P1 ( multiple choice for physic & chemistry )

2009-07-02T12:58:00.003+08:00

well , dorothy is sick ):
ytd was me&big'J' 4th YEAR ANNIVERSARY & i was sick !
down with fever , sore throat & cough .
doctor suspect me having H1N1 -.-"
she asked me to do the screen chk to chk for H1N1 but i insisted not to cos she says got to insert something to the nose ? it's rather painful & it cost S$50 for one chk .
so she gave me a day to rest and ask me to go back to her the next day if my fever is still not ok . done nth on our 4th year anni as big'J' is busy in his camp & im sick .
did not even prepare anything for him , so do him ?
well , nvm , somehow get use to it already . lol .
ok , gonna stop here & go rest .
BYE !

a random picked picture :

2009-06-29T15:36:00.005+08:00

well , today should be the first day of school for me & those who are still schooling ):
bt i did not went to sch today . HAHA !
me & didi have overslept & we slp all the way till bout 10 ? i guess .
ytd just promised big'J' that i will studyhard for the final lap & .......
i guess he gonna kill me if he knows i didnt went to school . muhahahaha !
hmmmm , to day gonna just post bout last saturday as im quite tire & sleepy now . lols .

27.o6.o9-saturday
(gonna be a short post )

meet weiwei sis at bout 4pm & we went to bugis
went to bugis street & bought some stuffs .
then we went to cityhall to meet our bf & went for movie "transformer2"
i can say that the show was nice ; rated 4/5 ?
& after movie , we took a cab back home .
oh ya , almost forgot , sis bf got 3 ndp tickets & she gave me 1 (: but it's for the rehearsal only which is on this coming sat . gonna go with sis to see our bf perform . im so happy !

pictures on that day :

another random pictures , me & sis on thursday ; 25.o6 @ town

that stupid big'J' of mine is crazy over these girls ; girls generation !

he says they're cute ,

he says if any one of them is his gf , he will be a happy man ,

& he even dwnload their video in to his psp & play it for me to listen .

im soo soo soo irritated by him ! ROAR .

he always sings " gee gee gee , baby baby baby " cos he knows i will be very fuck up . FUCK HIM !

hmm , anyone interested in GEO lenes ?

selling at only S$16 .

i got a instock of CM-836 ( no degree ) .

sellin it away cos i got the wrong degree & not really sure if i still can exchange it .

the effects are ; it will make your eye look bigger & darker .

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it's a 1year lenes .

i need a spectacles badly ):

my lenes are due .

2009-06-22T23:06:00.007+08:00

have just edit some things in my blog & im gonna blog now .
oh ya , before that , i wanna advertise my blogshop to you readers .
it's not really ready yet .
bt , i've posted some of the items up already .
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back to today's post ............

20.o6.o9-saturday

just as i've said in my previous post ,
went to meet weiiweii sis & we went to orchard .
we only shop at far east cos ther's not enough time for us .
we went to meet our bf @ cityhall as big'J' & sis bf was having their ndp rehearsal ther .
then adrain & his gf tag along .
after meeting them ,
bad news : big'J' told me that the seats for ndp tis yr are already booked full . 80% he cant get the tickets for me & weiiweii sis ): gosh . nt able to see big'J' performance ?
sis , what are we gg to do on that day if they kant get the tickets ? sad leh !
then we went to makansutra to have our dinner .
sit down talk talk awhile & we took night ridder back .
the same thing will happen on nex week ? LOLS .

okay , i can predict big'J' hse is dirty .
stay over at his place on saturday & tis is what happen to my kneecap -.-'
i know it's not nice (:

pictures on that day :

23.o6.o9-tuesday

went orchard to meet anna .

shopped around again & tis time i dont know why many things captured my eye & i just bought it .

many many sales gg on & on even jp .

bt im cashless now );

i still want shopshop . roar ! big'J' can i use all the money in your atm card ? hahahaha !

then blackchocolate came to meet me .

we went around hunting for hengheng bdae present as his bdae is on the 25.o6.o9thurs .

& he will be celebratin it at costa sand resort at pasir ris .

not sure gonna overnight at ther anot yt . will double confirm with you guys again (;

pictures on that day :

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2009-06-20T12:28:00.011+08:00

well , i know my blog is rotting , so im here to blog now (:
tis week is a sun tanning + swimming week for me and my skin is being sun burned as well as red now .
im gonna b black soon -.-' haha , jkjk . bt my skin colour is rather tanned now than before .
ok , gonna start my post (:

16.o6.o9-tuesday

went to sentosa with weiiweii sis .

meet her at around 8.45am and we headed down to harbourfront .

it have been months i didnt went to sentosa (:

we rched ther , get changed & went for suntanning at siloso beach .

chitchatted , played around & we went for the skyride + luge . it was fun eh .

then aftermath , we went to vivo walk walk , took our lunch at pizzahut , i bought a tube dress & we headed back to yishun to meet our parents (:

i've enjoyed my day ! bt im suffering from sunburn ): pain pain .

pictures on that day :

17.o6.o9-wenesday

was intended to rest at home on that day as i didnt have a good night sleep .

but when mum&dad rch home , sis asked them to go for a swim at yishun safra & i tagged along with them .

i been relaxing in the pool chitchatting with my laobu & kpo looking here & ther .

aftermath , we went to 925 for our dinner & home swt home .

no pictures taken on that day .

18.o6.o9-thursday

woke up 7am early in the morning & went to meet big'J'

went to cantonment with him to settle some case & headed down to cmpb ? for his ns tingy at red hill .

good news : big'J' most likely gonna sign on , & have a stable job as well as in come (: yahoo !

then was actually supose to go to amk hub to chk on my spectacles as well as my makeup base , but big'J' says he wants to go home and rest .

so we went to yishun s11 for our breakfast+ lunch & went back to his place .

both of us were so tire & we slept till bout 8pm ?

then we went to da bao macdonal & he cabed back to his camp & i home swt home .

pictures on that day :

19.o6.o9-thursday

as usual , woke up early as im gg to je ther for swim+play with my relatives .

it have been years i didnt went ther already .

& it was so coincident that i saw some familar faces ther .

aftermath , we bused to jp for our lunch & shopped around .

so sad that small'J' was sick & he's not able to tag along with us ):

but next week mayb ? hopes he'll get well soon .

dad & mum then came to fetch us back to yishun & we went to 417 to have our dinner .

pictures are with aunt , will update when she pass it to us .

TODAY

gonna meet weiiweii sis ltr at 3.3o

gg to town shopshop & ltr gonna meet big'J'

adrian & his gf tagging along too mayb ?

ok , that's it gonna stop here . got to pack my stuff for ltr (:

BYES !

2009-06-15T13:00:00.009+08:00

not gg out today .
i gonna be a guaii guaii mummy girl ; stay and home & do house work (:

FRIDAY- 12.o6.o9

went to meet big'J' at cityhall to buy my dress .
& he was LATE ! i waited him ther for bout 30mins ? zzzz . dear , you good ar
we shopped around then aftermath , meet adrian & his gf at cityhall mrt then to bugis .
randomly walked around @ bugis street & bought a pair of slipper for myself
then took mrt to boonlay to fetch small'J' & back to big'J' house (:

pictures on that day :

13.o6.o9- SATURDAY

was slacking at home as big'J' have his ndp tingy at kranji camp .

went to his place at bout 3pm & waited for him .

he rch home , bath & we went out to meet adrian & his gf @ yishun mrt .

we headed to east coast park for our dinner .

then went to play games .

& went to one of the pub to drink .

was long long long since i've touch alcohol same goes to big'J'

chitchatted here & ther & we cabed home together (:

pictures on that day ;

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big'J' says : dear , you still ok anot ? kant drink then dont drink le -.-'

me : im always liddat . my body very easy red .

big'J' : orh .. good , liddat then healthy (: ( emal )

SUNDAY-14.o6.o9

woke big'J' up in the morning & he dont want wake up .

i tickle him , beat him then he wake up . what a lazy boy he is .

gave him a morning kiss & he pretend to get back to slp again -.-'

washed up myself & went to use his computer .

while im using , he slp again .

then i wake him up again & he said ok .

he walked out of the room & went to the living room , lie on the floor & slp again . zzzzzzzz .

kant tahan him so i went to his room lie on his bed & i fell asleep also . hahahaha . small'J' was slping too .

then small'J' woke both of us up & i scolded big'J' for slpin & slpin & slpin . LOLS .

at last , big'J' was really awake & he went for his haircut & we went to boonlay to send small'J' back . small'J' must guaii guaii kay ? we will miss you (: kisskiss .

me&big'J' then went to jurongpoint walk walk .

& i mrt-ed back to yishun & big'J' back to his camp .

big'J' ;

i understand what you mean le .

i know sometimes somethings is just liddat de .

i will try to control myself . cos no point for us to quarrel over that matter .

bt to some ppl , pls be more zi dong leh .

pls know your limits ! i dont feel it's funny .

well , tmr gonna meet weiiweii sis to sentosa ! yuppee .

God , pls dont rain alright ?

i wanna enjoy myself with her ther .
BYE !

2009-06-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

well , my holidays classes have at last ended (:
now , i kan enjoy my holidays ! yupee .
chatting online with big'J' now .
he's so cute luhs . miss him much . he have light up my day (:
gonna meet him tmr (:
actually gonna meet weiiweii sis on sat for k but i got smth on so i cant mak it .
sis , sorry eh . kip on bomb you ): meet up on tuesday for our sentosa kay ?
i felt im rather bad . 对不起
i've painted my own nails ytd & today .
i painted my nials like tis ytd :

& sis says it dont look nice .
she says it look like those funeral -.-
so i wash it off & repaint it tis way :

it's better ?
sis says it's much more better (:
nights !

2009-06-09T13:26:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY-o7.o6.o9

gonna just blog bout sunday .
went to cwp for breakfast .
it was raining heavily till the trees fall down as well as the panels in cwp 1floor .
it was in the sunday news too .
after shopping awhile at cwp , went to big'J' house to meet them .
then went to boonlay .
bad news ,
big'j' 's saturday leave is being burned .
no more saturday meet ups ):
instead of we could spend more time with one another during my holiday , we spend lesser time together than usual . all cos of the ndp tingy . fuck it man !

pictures :

2009-06-03T09:32:00.011+08:00

well , today did not went to school & im gonna blog (:
today's post will have more pictures & lesser words i guess .
so enjoy !

31.o5.o9-sunday

sunday was as usual ,
breakfast at northpoint with family then to big'J' house .
at bout 3+ we brought small'J' to sembawang shopping centre
i bought my false eyelash & went went back to boonlay .
then big'J' went back to camp & i home swt home .
oh ya , i've DIY my own toe nails (:

pictures on that day ,

01.06.06-monday

it was me & big'J' 47month anniversary !

another one more month will be our 4th year anni . wow , that's fast (:

today was my chinese olvl paper .

it wasnt easy nor difficult for me cos my chinese isnt very good .

but , still overall , im aiming for a c6 will do .

after exam , i went out with my schoolmates to so called relief stress .

we went to cityhall , marina sq .

ate sakae sushi then to shop & to the ferrywheel (:

ppl go to ferrywheel to view the scenery but we was all the while snapping photos . lols .

i wanna take ferrywheel with big&small'J' !

warning ! all photos are coming up

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( there is actually more picyures , but i've accidentally delete it & lazy to reupload them . so that's it ! )

o2.o6.o9-tuesday

i've dragged myself to school .

then went to gym with yanting .

was surprise to see jerold & larry there .

then aftermath , went to 400+ coffee shop meet mum,dad & sis .

2009-05-28T21:10:00.002+08:00

well well , dorothy suddenly got the urged to post , so she's here ! (:
time passes really fast ,
3more days will be my olvl chinese paper as well as mi & big'J' 's 47thmonth anniversary .
i know many ppl envy me bout tis BUT , i jus wanna say that it's not easy maintainin it .
it needs both of us to clap & get thru all thicks & thins together .
once one leave , then gameover (:
big'J' have been treating me kinda weird tis few days .
sometimes good sometimes bad , got no idea what he's up to this time round .
tmr will be meeting him & got to rush down to some stupid place .
hopefully , everyting will be settled by tmr . right ? officer hoe ? sian .
thinking back , i've found that dorothy have change alot & really alot .
she no longer use to be the last time 'innocent , good' girl .
no longer every weekend meeting each & every sisters out .
no longer hanging out late late at town areas .
no longer meeting online friends .
no longer meeting unknown guys with bikes or cars .
no longer hanging out with guys for drink .
but seriously , i miss those times ):
now , the current innocent , good dorothy only
always meets both'J' on every of her weekends remember it's every of her weekends .
i've got no more time for my sisters ,
no more time flirting around with unknown guys ,
no more time hanging around at town areas ): how sad right ?
i know to some of the girls out ther , it's impossible for you all to get settled down so early like what i've did .
but for him , im willing to do it .
some of you may tink that im too stupid to do it as im only gg seventeen tis year & i still got alot to go thru which i have not .
but , what i can say is , i've got no choice , cos he have made me love him too deeply that im willing to give up everyting of mine .
but is my choice that i've made right ? then i've got no idea .
but big'J' if in future , ther's any changes now & then , i hope that you will remember that i've truly love you once ,
& i never regret knowin you .

2009-05-25T20:10:00.004+08:00

23may2009-saturday

it's another weekend which means it's a date with both'J' again (:
went to suntec for a movie with big'J'
watched "night in the musuem 2" it was a funny nice show & i've enjoyed it .
but the atmosphere for that day wasnt right .
everything did not appear to be right as well as our mood .
both of us were just moody & unhappy .
after movie , we took mrt back to yishun
well , we was in the same mrt but not the same cabin .
& i cabed back home on my own .

pictures for that day , before meeting him .
fyi , why most of my pictures are all im alone is bcos i only go out on the weekends as im studying on weekdays & my weekends are only for the both'J' & they dont like taking pictures .
i've injured my foot when im at big'J' hse on friday night & im wearing that high heels on saturday which make me go ouch ouch pain pain on that day ):

24may2009-sunday

my sunday was as usual with mummy,daddy,sis & bro .

headed to northpoint for breakfast then to big'J' hse .

went to boonlay to sent small'J' back .
intended to go to subway for dinner but we did not .

big'J' was so bad to show me attitude on that day .

dont know whats wrong with him , he just made me so sad .

i walked away from him & took mrt back on my own .

not knowin till i rch yishun , we was actually in the same train .

i could not stop myself from walking towards him when i saw him .

i felt like slaping him on his face & hug him tightly .

i went towards him & pull him with me .

then ....

not gonna continue anymore .
pictures on that day ,

25may2009-monday

today , i forced myself to wake up as i got to go school .

i know my attendance was not really good .

& i've planed to go to school tis whole week .

hopefully i wont be absent . lols .

chinese intensive is still on till this friday .

was as usual doing paper 1 or 2 during that first 5periods of chinese .

then our break & 4periods of Amaths lesson then cme .

after sch lessons , i still got to go for my chinese sub class till 5pm .

it was a long & tiring day .

i've got to repeat this for another 4days . sigh .

another 7days it will be my chinese olvl paper already & im yet to feel like studying . how how how ?

i guess i'll just pray hard for a c6 grade & im not gonna retake it .
somehow im missing that someone out of no where . oh gosh , dorothy dorothy

june holidays are coming for most of the students but not for me ):
i still got to go to school till the 10th of june . sad .
i gonna spend my june holidays wisely with weiiweii sis hopefully ?
cos i kant plan my time myself . only close ones understands .
at times , i really wish to be single again .
if , i can turn back the time , i will not choose to be with you but
i'll make you as a friend which is more important than a boyfriend to me .
now , i know if one day we got to end , i will be crying badly cos i wont be able to forget bout you
& im really serious bout it .
nth can easily replace you even my family or close friends . you should know what i mean ya ?

2009-05-18T10:58:00.003+08:00

15.o5.09 - FRIDAY

this is the day that i've been waiting for (:

& it was small'J' 's bdae .

HAPPY BDAE JOEJOE (:
to my small'J' , a year have pass real fast

i may not be always by your side but the thoughts of you will always be there .

wondering how do you feel bout your first year of life .

even thought you kant read yet but im sure when we talk to you , you'll somehow understand (:

i love you <3

thanks Yvonne , Serene , XiaoQing , Sares , YanTing , WeiiWeii & her bf , WaitTeng , WeiJie , Andy , WeeSien , Alex & co. , big'J' camp mate & his gf , & of cos my dearest JONATHAN WONG (:

16.o5.o9 - SATURDAY

that silly big'j' of mine forget to off his alarm & it woke me up at 5am in the morning -.-'

i was tunrin & turnin on his bed trying to get back to slp but i kant . zzzz

only till he woke up & hugged in his warm arms & put me to sleep again (:

when we woke up , he cooked me breakfast .

after eating , he played his dota & everyting , we decided to go to cityhall for a movie .

watched " angels & demons " rated 3/5 stars .

i tot that the movie is some sort like the " aliens VS predator " as the tittle sounds alike , bt actually it was smth bout catholic ? but overall it was still alright .

big'J' bought me two cotton on spags & two mango tops & nth for himself . so poor ting .

big'J' i promise next week i buy for you kae ? hahas .
no photo taken on that day .
17.o5.o9 - friday

mummy & daddy did not went out cos didi was having fever .

so i went to big'J' hse myself .

in the noon we bought small'J' out to cwp & bought him a soft toy .

aftermath , we went to boonlay to sent him back .

me & big'J' then went to jurongpoint for walk & our dinner .

big'J' , when will the special event be ? . haas . only you & me understands . lame .

then after walking round & round , we trained by home together .

no photo taken on that day .

2009-05-12T14:53:00.014+08:00

SATURDAY- o9.o5.o9

saturday was a public holiday ,

spended my morning with mummy & daddy (:
then in the noon i went to big'J' hse .

was in the mood to go gaigai so , i asked big'J' to bring me out

but in the end we didnt .

in the night , was intended to go to chongpang to book small'J' 's bdae cake as his bdae is on 15.o5(friday) but me & him quarreled for some reasons & i went to meet weiiweii sis (: at khatib .

chatted with her lots & lots & cabbed back home .

pictures taken on that day :

SUNDAY- 10.05.09

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !

went to 400+ with mum&dad for breakfast .

mum was sick , so dad drove me to meet xiaoqing as im borrowing her fbt shorts then they drove me to big'J' 's hse & they went home to rest .

in the noon me,big'J' & small'J' went to 200+ to have big'J' 's haircut & to book small'J' 's bdae cake .

then we sent small'J' back to boonlay .

we spended some time shopping around jurong point and headed back to yishun .

then big'J' went to S11 to meet his friends & i bused home (:

pictures taken on that day :

MONDAY- 11.05.09

monday was a school holiday

i spended my monday with serene , sares , yanting , xiaoqing , ziling celebrating serene's 17bade at wild wild wet .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE !
we meet bout 8.3oam at yishun bus interchange & took 39 to pasir ris .

then we walked to wild wild wet & found out that it only opens at 1pm ):

so we spend the few hours slacking at macdonal & Xzone at E-hub .

when it's near to 1pm , we headed to wild wild wet , serene treated us for the tickets & we went in .

we get changed & played everthing ther .

i find that the Ushaped tingy , wave tingy & the hulala tingy was fun . i've enjoyed it !

as well as our catching at the playground ther ? hahas . but was tiring .

then at bout 4.3o we went to get changed & everything .

xiaoqing & serene then sent sares out as she got to leave , so me , yanting & ziling went to bought a bdae cake for serene .

then at 6.30 , we then went to sushi hei to have the dinner buffet .

we ate , ate & ate .

tot that we're able to cut serene's bdae cake ther , unfortunly , the ppl say that we're able to cut ther but not able to eat in ther . zzzzzzz . i find that rather lame .

so we brought the cake to one side outside & blowed the candles there .

the cake was too hard to be cut with the plastic knife so , serene brought it home & bring it tmr for our recess (;

then we cabbed back to yishun & they home swt home .

i went to meet big'J' & he passed me his psp & asked me to play with it when im bored . then he walked me home (;

pictures taken on that day :

the weather wasnt good .

TUESDAY- 12.o5.o9

today was a tiring day .

was so tiring till i intended not to go to sch , bt i did .

normal lessons held per normal .

i didnt attend today's extra lessons as i really kant take it already .

today big'J' was out for his field camp & will only be back on thursday .

how sad ): gonna miss him much !

2009-05-04T11:38:00.004+08:00

well , it's another new new week (:
today i was sent home from sch cause im having flu & slight cough .
all thanks to that pig flu , i got this chance to escape . lols .
so gald that im able to home sweet home & get into my lalaland . blablabla .
went to yishun polyclinic just now & i was asked to wear a mask .
damn weird & uncomfortable wearing it luhs . i hate it man !
spend bout an hour waiting for my turn & my medication .
then i walked back home & tada ! here i am (: .
okay , i know it's not funny but , hahaha !
alright , let me post bout last week gym tingy .
on last thursday , i went to khatib gym with , xiaoqing , yan ting & serene .
we went ther for like bout 4hrs ? exercising ?

then we went to 848 kopitiam for our dinner .
& walked back to yishun .
along our way to the kopitiam , we ..........

hahas .

i know it's rather lame , stoping in the middle of no wher , playing like no one's bussiness & snapping our camera here & ther .

but but , i love it ! :D

oh ya ! do you guys heard bout the ma po de hua yu by huang ming zhi a malaysian he's quite famous in youtube i guess .

the guy who compose his own song , makes his own mtv , etc ?

his youtube nick is called namewee (: go chk it out !

he's songs are damn funny and his vocal is seriously nice nice (:

but , i heard that he's being banned in malaysia cos he've compose a song saying bad tings bout malaysia ? lols .

if you guys want to know more of his songs or know more bout it , you all can chk it out at youtube (:
toodles !

2009-04-27T11:24:00.006+08:00

oh , at last my new blogskin is done . hohoho !
im gonna change the way i post from today onwards .
picture size will be in large & posting out more more photos i tink .
time passes really fast . another 4days will be me & hubby's 46months anni (: yay !
and not forgetting , today is sister pearllyn's 19th & jia en's 2nd birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BOTH OF YOU !
hmmm , pass few days i've been gg to the gym with my friends & be with both'J' on my weekends @ big'J' hse .
actually i should say on every of my weekends i'll be with both'J' hahas . alright , watever ~
ytd in the morning , i went out to northpoint with mum, dad & bro .
was intended to eat the japanese food for breakfast that im craving for but it was not open yet .
so we went to the 'foodcourt' .
after eating , dad drove us to amk gaincity as ther's sales gg on there .
we walked around
& dad bought a vacum cleaner which cost only S$49 it's cheap !
dad says he wanna use it to wash his aircon & mum no need always sweep the floor untill all the hair flying around . i guess it's a good ideal (:
they also gave us a membership card which allows us to get discount after spending over S$100 .

aftermath , dad drove me to big'J' hse .
big'J' is forever sleeping , eating or dotaing & nth else . zzzzzz .
i was so so bored bored after seeing him dotaing agn & agn .
so i decided to play with my viewty camera and tada !
below are all the pictures that i've got .

look , he's happily dotaing & slping

so i , snap snap snap !

then at bout 5-6pm ,

we went to boonlay for our dinner & some window shopping

then home swt home (:

i guess it's time for me to trim my eyebrown & some haircut (:
my tagboard is dying . tag me tag me (:

2009-04-20T16:40:00.004+08:00

oh , i know this pic is quite a dark one for you guys to see .
but if you look carefully , you kan see my didi's pek chek face . hahaha !
well well , rainy days are soon to be over for me & big'J' .
we've so so stop our quarrels and get back together .
but i find that it wasnt as normal as the pass .
i got some kinda of weird feeling & i dont know why .
but for him , he's just as usual as before ..
we've made another sets of promises between one another .
i've told him that i wont stop him from doing anything that he want anymore .
but still per normal , not to neglect me .
i've seriously thought it for quite a some time before saying it & i hope that tis wont cause to increase my stress .
i guess it's time for me to let everyting go as it which ,
as im tired of controlling already (:
so that also goes from him to me .
he have his freedom , i've mine .
but we still have our limits .
so , cos of that freedom , dorothy is getting back to friendster as well as facebook accepting everyone (;
& to my dearest sisters more more outing ya ? hehes .

small'J' we love you :D

2009-04-15T20:34:00.005+08:00

wellwell , it's already the 4th day that we didnt contact ):
actually , i dont really understands what happen .
bt i know that im tire of msging him wout any reply . im sooo sooo tire . sigh
however , everynight before i sleep i'll still look at my phone hoping for a reply from him ( unfortunely , ther wasnt any )
issit bcos im use to it ? or ...
i know it's impossibe for me not to think bout you now .
but i'll try real hard to do it .
this few days , i've been forcing myself to do many many stuffs so that i could stop thinkin bout you .
i've been make myself so tire so that i could get rid of my sleepless night .
i dont wanna think of anyting anymore . im too afraid of stress .
big'J' , i beg you to stop forcing me to do things that i dont like , can you ?
i just hope to be with small'J' forever & ever .